Welcome My Loves!

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:16 pm

that makes me feel horrible...but i guess were going to feel bad either way.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:18 pm

ya..i couldnt really look at him..but i feel like they really dont give a crap how close we all got to them..and they would go at a drop of a hat.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:21 pm

they dont really see how much its going to be like a stab in the heart!
when i was talking to hayden i just felt like i was going to burst out in tears AND EVAN! JEZZE! i will die with out him!

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:26 pm

it was torture not to talk to them for 3 DAYS!!
and evan said that his parents would arrange many times a month to hang out...compared to seeing them every day!!!!!
i would rather take them being here everyday. im so sick of feeling like im going to lose them when he pretty much has his mind made up..all of them.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:28 pm

exactly! i mean if i had a choice i would never leave....ever!

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:31 pm

well ive been on edge since his parents found out..and im trying really hard to get over my fears but it seems as if they arent really trying at all and thats a slap in the face to me..and all their friends.
here they are just talking about leaving us and here WE are trying to think of ways to win their parents AND change their minds..they really are so utterly frustrating it leaves a lump in my throat.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:36 pm

if they realized how much we love them and what it is going to do to us...i mean...i dont know. it is very frustrating, i agree completely! urgh...ill be back in a little bit sorry i have to go to walmart and choke back my tears.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 4:39 pm

ttyl.
love ya jess.

i think they dont really know what kind of a person i am...im practically so clingy im like a spider monkey!@!
and its like a birds babies being touched by humans...the momma bird leaves but she doesnt want to...but they are worth nothing now.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:40 pm

yeah. its crazy! I CANT EVEN THINK STRAIGHT NOW!

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:43 pm

i know..and im focusing in school..
THATS BAD!
and whenever me and the Evan start talking about other stuff...i just get happy then depressed cuz i know he prolly wont last with me.
hes gonna go..i can feel it..and hes gonna leave us all behind..they all are.
i can tell by the way he said things today...their leaving.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:45 pm

i cant stand this. its ripping at my heart already. i mean my heart was already messed up and its knawing at the edges

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:47 pm

i know..mine was too..but it grew a little when i met them and im just so fucking TIRED of being depressed.
lifes not fair but...SCREW THIS!!!!!
i mean we're teens and i already have the stress of a frikkin 50 year old!
its not fair but then again..what is anymore.
ha
(sorry for cursing)

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:49 pm

its okay i slipped a bunch today. i really really hate this!

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:52 pm

ya..i just hope he doesnt see these..or any of them..
i dont want him to feel bad cuz they are leaving but..im still gonna speak my mind to himm...when i get the guts.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:53 pm

yea me neither. im not going to talk to any of them about this

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 5:57 pm

as much of emotion i have..i really dont wanna show it..it'd hurt them...actually idk if it really would anymore..nah..im pretty sure they still care. but they are acting as if they are not transfering! this is SSOO stupid i could hit someone.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:00 pm

you can hit me, not like it'll hurt any more than this is.
they are acting too normal!

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:00 pm

either they are playing a sick joke...or they really dont realize what this is doing to us.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:02 pm

lets just pray. i mean we have a little time before they do maybe by then they'll realize...nevermind thinking back to how fast this years gone so far we have like no time.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:05 pm

exactly.
and they think another school will be all too amazing.
no..it wont.
they would feel bad about leaving..and miss us.
same as we would be indescribably depressed and lonely...their are breaking pieces of all our hearts..and they dont realize maybe art isnt that important..maybe i should stick to my LIFE with them...

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:07 pm

i mean they should take the same advise they gave bryan...dont chose dumb things over your friends. (no affence bryan) but i mean urgh! it cant just end like this. i mean whats so great about the art there??

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:11 pm

idk..i guess they use it more...what are they really gonna gain there??
nothing but a little more hand cramping.
idk..i feel bad talking about something they look forward to but...
one week.
one week and i guaruntee they will regret the crap that they thought was gonna be great.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:13 pm

and its going to be hard enough in highschool and it'll be a little easier with friends there....but their going to have to find new ones.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:15 pm

yep..exactly. maybe thats what they want.??
idk..im gonna ask him tomorrow if hes going then to tell me right then so i can stop crying in hopes they'll stay. im so....pissed..and sad..its so incomprehensibly retarded i cant stnad it.

Subject: Re: Welcome My Loves! Wed Jan 07, 2009 6:18 pm

but why would they want that, it makes no sense to me
every frickin time i think about them i start crying now! this isnt going to be very happy ending, pretty suckish if you ask me...its not even suckish its way more than that.